The Next Day

I've often wondered at the significance of Jesus in the cave for three days and then is Risen.  Though the Bible is mistranslated and misunderstood and for the most part a propaganda tool for Constantine to control Roman Empire until today....there are little clues in the Bible to secret mystery rituals.  Much of Christianity  had evolved from the Egyptian Mystery Schools which, in my opinion, evolved from Sumerian Myths.  Gilgamesh is the original Flood Story.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gilgamesh

Whether I am interpreting correctly or just conveniently hijacking this Bible story, I believe there is more to the story of the 3 days in the cave.  When a person is doing a ritual it has three parts necessary for the mind to integrate the message....just like a story...a beginning, middle and end.  The rituals I use are healing ones, things I've picked up from the social work I've done and helping people move their energy.  I do psychological rituals using symbols that the brain can work with.  Nothing I do is done to manipulate or control or connect to dark energies.

I see these three stages when doing deep meditations.  Because of what has been done to my brain as a child (phenabarb at 4), experiences I've had, intense people I've met and my own dedication to understand Reality  I've observed these stages when I do a Major Meditation.  This "Experiment" being the most powerful.  A handful of times I've gone so Deep that the only thing that brought me back is my phone ringing....but there is never a real phone call.  Who's watching out for me?  Where would I go if they didn't bring me back?

The first day of a Ritual  is setting up the Meditation.  The second day is integrating.  I don't feel part of reality and need to just stay inside.  There is a feeling that if I interact with people or even nature I will be pulled out of this stage.  It isn't even a conscious decision.  At that stage you are a Jello Mold that has just been put in the fridge and is runny.  I nap a lot and drink lots of water and just be quiet, not putting any information into my system that goes against what I'm trying to envision.  If I was a snake it would be after I shed my skin and now I'm raw and sensitive.

Today is the third day and after dragging all yesterday I'm super energetic and my thinking is clear and my emotions even though a bit lofty.  After listening to the music in the "Experiment" I had allowed myself to sink into the FEELING of Home.  I didn't give it boundaries or a color scheme, only held onto how I would feel if I was at my True Home.  Which isn't this small town or my biological family.

I've done this Three Stage Ritual many times and it has a repeatable Flow to it.  So yesterday while I could think of several things I needed to do I didn't waste time worrying about it because I knew today I would have that energy boost to finish it up.  After this I'm starting my day doing a faux paint ceiling for a friend.

One thing I've noticed on Day Three is that if I've done a Deep Meditation I always get the results I'm looking for but not always in ways I expect.  I have SO pushed to expand my Self that I no longer compatible with the life I was living 3 days before.  As I go through my day today I will remain observant as to how the Universe mirrors my "New Self".  Often I have a dramatic loss.  Friends, money, ID, a plant will die, dinner plans cancelled.  When I first started doing Deep Meditations  this stage would make me anxious and I would quickly resume my old self so that I could jump start my Old Life with my Old Friendships/Routines.  This of course only make all those things that much more out of sync with me.

If you stay observant and patient the Universe will bring to you those people and situations that reflect the Vibe you now carry and radiate.  Just stay at Peace, give a quiet knowing smile and let people and things be.  So I will just watch how things play out today.  In the past I've noticed that after my taste in food, color and people change. 

I'm seeing this disconnect immediately.  A relationship I've been nurturing  just turned ice cold when we talked this morning.  I had so pushed my boundaries that I am way out of sync with this person.  Weird coincidences kept us from not talking yesterday and when I saw them this morning it's as if I never met them before.  Logically I do know them for several years but emotionally we are starting from scratch.

I can't "remember" this person.  From a metaphysical point of view we are in two different realities and now my New Self no longer has the same old memories.  Again, logically I KNOW we have history but EMOTIONALLY I just can't bring it up.  Deep Meditations jumps Timelines and if you go by yourself you may have jumped the track completely.

Now because this person and I have numerous Past Lives shared we connect on a deeper level and because our friendship is strong to the core my Raised Vibration will get this person to eventually resonate at my frequency, often amazing their friends at the changes they go through.  Each time we "reorient" I wonder if it will be the last.  How much does their Soul want to change?  Have we reached the limits of our Soul Friendship?  Has it fulfilled it's purpose?  In the Way Past I would have dumbed down to keep this person in my life but I've gone to far this time.

Meditation Let Down

This is what I'm listening to now after focusing on the "Experiment" Meditation most of yesterday...which is listening to the Midnight Special music while occupying the Left Brain by drawing and coloring geometric designs allowing one's more authentic Self rise to the surface because it is now Home.

You have to pretend play like a child to move from one state of Mind to another.
And he said: "Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.  Mathew 18;3

I "pretended" I went home and Home felt like the music I was listening to.  I just curled up and occupied myself with simple chores while it rained all day.  

I woke up to a fabulous day of sunshine and crisp air, all the plants refreshed from the water.  I should go out and enjoy it but can't bring myself to leave this Bubble of Bliss I've worked myself up into.  And I'm dealing with Meditation Let Down.  It's best to just cocoon.

It used to be I didn't understand what was going on.  I had just done an intense meditation and expected to be jumping for joy the next day.  Instead I didn't want to poke my nose outside or see anyone.  I didn't feel like myself and nothing I normally did seemed appealing.

Now I know this is part of the process.  Like putting Jello in the fridge to firm up, my Self is a bit wobbly and doesn't want to deal with any outside distraction.  

Tomorrow I know I'll be bursting with energy and the world that I walk out to has fundamentally changed because I've "shot" myself into a Probable Timeline.

BullsEye

One Sign that showed up was the BullsEye which pretty much means you've hit the Mark.
It's interesting that "sin" in Arabic means "Missing the Mark".

I found a cute newly remodeled cabin that was part of 1940s motel.  In fact, I used to live in one on the end about 15 years ago which is part of this Time Loop I'm in.  It's a great transitional place.  I didn't expect to be here this long.  But things got crazy and it wasn't time to be making major moves.  What I had wanted was to find a studio/apartment as a base camp and do some traveling and this place might be the answer..

There is so much within a days drive from here I can spend the next 20 years exploring.  The Grand Canyon is not that far away and needs to be on my Bucket List.  I had been there once but at the same time was more focused on my then active toddler to keep him from going off the edge.  He's an adrenaline junkie to this day.  So I would like to go camping out that way to really appreciate it.  Get in better shape and hike to the community at the bottom.

It's freaky to listen to the Midnight Special Music along with this.  Home?  Not this exactly, but can you imagine life at the bottom of the Grand Canyon?  I believe the story is that Native Americans hid all over the SouthWest to escape the Cavalry and these people were not found.
Aztec is a sweet little town and close by.  A sort of manageable Santa Fe.  I have history with some of the cashiers at Safeway.  Everyone knows my mom because she ran the Vanilla Moose for 30 years selling ice cream and you can't buy that kind of networking!  LOL

Time to Settle Down

I moved back to my small Northern New Mexican town.  It's like the 5th time in 30 years.  I've never felt settled in my entire life so this is novel.  With all the places I've lived this area has the most of what I'm looking for and it's just time to unpack.
Within hours new opportunities started dropping in my lap with a wave of  joy that did not come from my day-to-day thinking.
I'm heavily influenced by the Seth channelings of Jane Roberts from the 70's.  Her book literally dropped off the shelf to my feet.  I see it as a technical manual on how to move reality.  For the past few months I've been at the SethSpeaks Forum which has been great to chat with others who have that same information.
http://speakingofseth.com/index.php
I listen to a lot of the Abraham-Hicks and Bashar videos.  So I took this wave as a confirmation.  Then there were  coincidences and people from my dreams of 15 years showed up.  This past year has been Dreamlike.  Luckily I didn't have to work.  I don't think I could have coped with all the weird shifting energy and situations and deal with people!  LOL  I've been become super sensitive to the Vibe which you would think would be a cool thing but it's been difficult to concentrate on Living Life.  And I don't think it's just me.  Look at our politics.

People around me are responding in new ways so I sense it is a more Cosmic Thing.  I've been back for a bit over a year and been pretty reclusive.  I chat with the Skateboarder next door who is a distant relative to my granddaughter, with Amelia,80, who is down the street and I've know for 20+ years and further down the street is Cheryl who went to school with my son Ryan who I've known for 20- years and does body work.  We are all in a mile long straight line.
Cheryl is a good judge of the Cosmic Thing because all her clients come in waves with the same issues...(we do not discuss the clients) and she's "seen" this Cosmic Wave Thing too.  So buckle up, I'm not crazy.  LOL

I see it as surfing the Wave.  Energy is coming in and you can ride it or be sucked under.   I grew up not far from Lake Michigan beach across the water from Chicago.  Spring and Fall you can see the sun set behind the city skyline.  Lake Michigan feels like an ocean and we would jump the waves.  There was always that sweet spot where the wave would lift and carry you or go over your head and you go under.

So this Wave is my personal belief but even other than that you can not whip up a society so quickly as this last 50 years has and not expect turmoil.  After I turned 50 I was feeling sort of old.  :-)  Then I realized that I am at a very special spot in history.  I was always amazed at the stories of my grandparents living in an age from 1890 to 1980s.   Society changed dramatically and they for the most part were blindsided, not to mention having to go through two World Wars and a Depression.  The 60's was more than my Grandfather could take.

Sometime I wonder if the Age I'm in might be crazier.  I feel I have a unique perspective starting out in a household before TV and then glued to all those early shows.

We were given a naive vision of America.  And while television was a novelty we didn't carry technology in our pockets and our souls like now.  In a different more pretend version of America.  I remember the early Political Conventions.  As boring as going to church with my Grandmother...but what we have this year is like out of the movie  "Idiocracy".

Going the long way to get to the Point...I feel people of my age have a unique view of Life.  I remember Life before TV and all the tech that followed.  It was a very naive time but people were real.  I'm so thankful for the technology.  I absolutely LOVE to be part of the Omni-Verse, but I ponder if it's too late to be "real" again.
My way of dealing with that Mystery is to start being serious about getting back at drawing and such.  Communication from soul to soul if done well.

Long Time No See

Things were in such a flux it wasn't wise to continue writing about it publicly.  Or think about it privately.
But now.  The dust has settled.

"Write your injuries in dust and your benefits in marble."  Ben Franklin

This isn't meant to be a chatty diary but observations on how all the principles from the Fairy Tale blog have worked through my life...in practical, repeatable and teachable ways.  I'm at a Nexis Point as I feel Reality in general is and it's just time to be more open about things.
"A nexus is a central link or connection. If you happen to be at the nexus of something, you are right in the middle of it, like standing in the middle of an intersection. Nexusentered English during the seventeenth century from the Latin word nectere, meaning"to bind or tie."

At the moment I'm listening to the "Midnight Special" soundtrack.

I've been playing around with the "Experiment" from the Fairy Tale Blog.
http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2016/07/an-experiment.html
I distract the Left Side of my Brain with geometric art.   Simple stuff using kid's markers.  This allows the "feel" of the music to sink in with less resistance.  And the music is based on Going Home.  I feel the Universe is conspiring to send us and this is a possible ticket.  I don't know.  But it FEELS like something is being connected.  And being the Pisces that I am it's all about the Feeling!  :)

And I'm starting to feel Home.  I realized that it is not a place but a state of mind.  It's something I've known logically for a long time but now it's a gut reaction which led to making some decisions that I've been putting off because now I know I'm "safe" because I'm "Home".  It's just the weirdest sensation.  So I'll be exploring that.